[November 05, 2007]
I AM TEH WORST CASE OF WRITER'S BLOCK.

That was what I told Trisha when we were talking about her novel that was due in a month. Ask her bout it. Cos I dont know all teh details. 

Anyhow, trishy was teh one to start it cos she said that she was having writer's block and she can't finish her novel. As in no ideas at all. Well, there are actually ideas, but she can't put em into words. Everything's unorganised. 
Then I told her that I am teh worst case of writer's block. Not just mental block for words and whatevers, but also very very VERY lazy. Can you not tell by this hellhole of a journal? Haha. Or rather, can you not tell by my permanent hiatus on Teh Graveyard? Oh yeah, for those who do not know, I don't use that site anymore. I will, prolly in teh future. But not as of now. It's quite dead. But not closed.

ANYHOW. I've lost my flair and passion for writing. I have been too indulged with teh arts. I have been too busy with my designs and sketches and whatever. And I forgot to write a lot! I forgot that I love writing.

This event now has a psychological effect on me. RELATIVE DEPRIVATION. Ima blog and blog and blog again. Like before. Cos I missed doing that. And I missed this. And oh crap. I jus miss everything. *cries* LOL

We were talking bout teh writer's block, right?
Well, I haven't been productive lately. Whenever I write, I put my pen down again. PROCRASTINATION, yeah. It sucks really. It sucks that you know you have these wonderful ideas, and yet your hand isn't fast enough to write em all down. And I cannot really type my ideas up because my computer is still broken[it's been a friggin year!]. But I've been trying to type em up in my mini notebook that still hasnt been configured to english. But thanks to that, i have knowledge bout Japanese and all. Haha! BUT! That lil gadget needs batteries. And batteries are costly. Though I can always use rechargeable ones, but brother aint buying any charger or rechargeable batteries. With all these hindrances, I tend to become lazy and just downright unproductive. TSK.

But, I want to change that. I want to go back to before. To way back when. To teh times that I had fun with writing. Not jus poems, or stories or whatevers. but journals and posts, even if they are senseless to teh readers. But to a writer, nothing is senseless if you put yer heart into it. Everything is worth it if you give yer attention and patience to it. 

Now, that's what I am going to do. Ima start anew and live like how I want to live. 

And I promise you that this time, I WILL BE BACK. That's fo sure.

xoxo

I am in college right now and pretty much I have learned a lot of things. Things that I may take to my grave, things that I have used and still using. Or basically just BASIC things which add up to what is already inside my head. These can be good, mind-boggling, confusing, amazing or downright stupid. 

But more importantly, these things have added to what or who i am now. To what I have become or dont want to become. Whatever, The point is, there has been change. And change has always been here, no matter how much I hate it. Haha.

Oh yeah. Hopefully, you would learn some too!

First thing. I posted something about teh rally bout TOFI, right? I actually enjoyed it. It was an awesome experience. Because you were with people you hardly know and at one time, I felt that I actually cared about what was happening in this world. I mean, yes. I do care bout this world and all its problems. BUT I GOT INVOLVED. That was a first time. And prolly teh last. I jus joined that rally because I wanted to know what it was like fighting for a cause with all your heart. I wanted to know what it was like to stand under teh sun, shouting yer lungs out for change and hoping that when you wake up tomorrow, everything would be as how you've planned it. And acted upon. 

I dont regret going to that rally to show some support. After all, everybody's affected. But not everybody wants to do a thing about it. HELPLESSNESS. 
But as I have said, I won't go to rallies anymore. One experience is enough. But I'm not saying NO to possibilities. Que sera sera.

Another that I have learned is that you get to be very friendly once you are in college. You meet a lot of people. And I mean a LOT. You have different classmates every two hours, or everyday. And when you are outside and you walk endlessly, you'd see some familiar faces and they would look at you, and you'd look at them too. Then you'd say HI or wave or smile. Or whatever. You may also ask ''musta na?'' or ''may klase ka?'' or whatever. Cos it seems necessary. 

But eventually, you learn to forget some of teh people, and you still say hi or smile to some. But teh thing is, you wouldn't give a damn anymore if you did or did not. Still, teh bottomline is: you become friendly. I KNOW I HAVE.


Oh wait. Got classes. Ima cut this short and be back. Promise.

xoxo

This is an entry about what's up with teh University of teh Philippines.

Yes, I am a student. A freshman. And I am disturbed by teh fact that teh Board of Regents have passed on teh 300% tuition and other fee increase. Tis a major pain in teh arse. Mind you.

And this morning, I joined teh rally. Of course, it was headed by teh University Student Council and SAKBAYAN. Don't ask. O___o and oh, a lot of parties and organisations were there like Gabriela, Anak Bayan and Kabataan. =3

And we protested about teh increase or ToFI. We roared JUNK TOFI.! We even had henna tattoos of junk tofi to let teh people see our support. 

And yes, we somehow succeeded. And hopefully, ToFI would be abolished.

Not jus fer my own sake. But also fer teh others.

And we also protested about teh rerouting of teh jeepneys in teh campus, teh vendors' who were shooed off and of other concerns.

xoxo

Tuition fee increase ni Roman (na naman).. 
Salot, talagang salot. Kasalut-salutan.!